The Last 44 Days....

         Its official as of today I have 44 days left of being considered a child and after that I will be an adult. My birthday is May 14th, a Monday. I have a long list of things that I would love to have happen on that day here's the top 10:

1. Go out to eat and ignore my diet while doing so.

2. Learn to play Skyrim.

3. Get a bunch of balloons to tie to my backpack.

4. Get no homework to do.

5. Watch TV for a while.

6. Get asked on a date.

7. Hang out with my friends.

8. Eat cake!

9. Have a surprise party.

10. Have a Harry Potter movie marathon!

       All of these things would help to make my 18th birthday the best ever!

Jealousy

I wanted to have what they had, seeing them together tore at my heart. I wanted to have a lasting relationship with someone, but it seemed like I never knew what to do. I sat watching my friend and her boyfriend trying to figure out what I was constantly doing wrong, that I didn't have the luck with guys she seemed to have. I sat trying to figure out what my problem was and finally figuring out what emotion I was feeling when I heard a voice behind me.

"Feeling a little jealous?"

I would know that voice anywhere, and he was right that was exactly how I was feeling. I turned to face my ex boyfriend Jason, and I felt a new wave of jealousy flood over me at the sight of this new girl on his arm, Jason had been the only guy that I had ever felt something for and I was completely confused when dumped me for no apparent reason at all.

Stress

Helpful...? Maybe.

Stress sucks. Period. I am so stressed so often that it's not even funny to think about anymore. The best way to deal with stress is to go do something that isn't stressful for a while. 

I looked at my boss with wide innocent eyes. "Mr. Jarrington, you can't honestly think that I would be able to do the big project?"

Jarrington looked at me for a second. "No, thats why I am having you work on it with Burns."

Oh kill me now. I thought, Jared Burns had been trying to get me fired for the past two years. He made it quite clear that he didn't want me working here because I was a woman and women shouldn't be working. No, women should be at home and the husband should be working. Only problem was that I wasn't married.

"Fine." I said. I knew that I couldn't win this round, no matter how hard I tried. Mr. Jarrington had just added more stress to my already stressful life. Can this day get any worse? I thought. Little did I know that it could and would.

Harry Potter VS. Twilight

Obviously! As much as I love Twilight I love Harry Potter more!!!!

Harry Potter was my childhood,

Twilight was my High School Life.

But I don't want a guy who sparkles, 

So I am sorry Bella but Harry Potter is better than Edward!

I mean seriously who would you rather have?

Dreams

There are many ways that dreams change and shape us.

Dreams are just wishes waiting to come true. That was the quote of the day on the white board in Mr. Sanders creative writing class. Yeah right. I thought, while I glared at it as intensely as I could. I had a dream to go to the senior Prom (in a large empire waist dress that was ice blue) and that didn't look like it was going to happen any time soon. I had three days left until that day and by the looks of it my chances of being asked were slim to none at best. 

Courage

The way my Dad always explained courage to me was "Courage is being brave even when you are scared to death."

When you have courage anything is possible.


I wanted to be normal, I wanted it so bad that I could taste it. But I was also scared I had always tried to be myself, but thats a hard thing when I didn't even know who I was. So I mustered up the last bit of courage and pushed open the door to my new life.